the sad sad life of mimi.
so be ready.
coz itz gonna be f*ckin' jiwang.
*hahakzZZZ!!!!!
im so cramped
i got so much work to do now,looking at what i haf to do is alot. new rules to start,sop's,paperworks...so much things to do.
at least now i have some things to get my mind off missing you...today i went to the atm,i realize that my savings are all gone..$4000++. what did i do wit all that?? u don't wanna noe.the fact that u can noe is that, I'm B-R-O-K-E.
that money was for my future,urs,ours...and i threw it all awaythese few days i've got back my sleeping habits,but damn why wen i progress something stops me again. stop all these dreams. i dreamt of u..what the FUCK kan!!!makes me feel so bad wen i wake up.but it was nice dreaming of u coz its the only time that i could see u...and its the 3rd..one more time,what the FUCK kan!!!!but sometimes i still cant sleep,on certain days...
we were happy together..but it was all a dream...i went to watch the EYE,but it was boring.nevermind about the movie.there was JESSICA ALBA!!!!!!
&& why are people asking me if i'm taking drugs??? i just dont get a good nite sleep tats all for GOD's sake!
&&& stop asking me questions!!!
i needed a hug, i even dreamt of hugging, i'm in such a bad state that i just needed a hug.not a kiss, not a smile but a HUG...
thanks for the hug girl,thanks for being my bestfriend,18 years of friendship,thank youpeople start telling me to hate you...
i could but i can't..
people start telling me to let go and move on...
i tried but i can't..
why is it so hard. why is life so unfair to me. why when i worked so hard for it,it just let me down again and again.why have i tried everything but it comes down to nothing. why do i have this in my life? why do i have to suffer in my life?23 years and it has not changed.why do i have frens? why do i have a family? why do i have to live? when living doesn't bring me anything...
**u msged me for the first time since so long,gd nite to u too...
((may GOD bring u happiness and protect u where ever u are...amin~))
((i'll always be here watching u from afar, and be beside u when ever u are alone..i will always love u))
Monday, March 03, 2008 // 11:49 PM